John Welcome to the group no one wants to join but that everyone who joins benefits from. I have been a member for almost 6 years and it was the thing that helped me through my grief the most. I too lost my spouse and appreciate the whole in your life that you are dealing with now. The pain gets less acute but never totally goes away. As others have said keep coming here and sharing and our family that you are now a part of will help you through as we were all helped.
John.....I'm so sorry for the loss of your husband. I lost my husband Ken in January after almost 30 years together so I certainly understand how devastated you are. I'm glad you found us here. You have come to the right place, We can all understand each other in ways that others cannot. You are now part of our Legacy family. I hope you will continue to come here for the support you will definitely need just to get through an hour. There's no easy way to move forward. It truly is baby steps each day.
I am so very sorry for the loss of your beloved George. I lost my husband Larry in April of 2015 after 32 years. I can only begin to imagine how much love, laughter, and life you and George have shared through your 46 years together - it was a beautiful gift you both had, and to now find yourself without him by your side is surely devastating.
I affirm Marsha's words wholeheartedly - I can personally assure you this is a place of love, comfort, and acceptance - you have indeed found the right place, our new friend, and we all open our arms and our hearts to you.
I offer this music for you and your dear George, in my way of holding out a hand in welcome, comfort, and support - many here share music, photos, and stories as we walk our paths together, always here to catch each other when we stumble, and steady each other through the shakiest of days.
I have posted it here before - the thought of Eternal Light is somehow very comforting to me, and I have just this morning been listening to it again before reading your post here. Simply click on the link and it will bring you to YouTube where you may listen to the piece if you desire - I only say this because someone had to tell me how to hear something they had sent me a few months ago - perhaps you are more proficient than I with computers (that wouldn't take much, as I am quite old school when it comes to these things).
I send you my prayers for peace in your heart, and the promise that your long journey toward healing from this terrible loss you have suffered has already begun - it started when you joined here my friend. We are all here for you when you need us -
Dear John ... I am so very sorry for your recent loss of your spouse George. You have certainly come to the right place as there are new members who unfortunately have had the loss of a spouse and also people such as myself when my husband Ernie passed away from pancreatic cancer April 27, 2011. I do know very well the pain you feel and that you would rather be with George than where you are. I know it feels like you can't breath, it's a bad nightmare and you want to wake up. The tears, can't sleep or sleep too much and your heart feels like it's pulled out of your chest. We all know how you feel and we're here for you so just pour your heart out to us because no one judges another. We're here as a family and you are part of this lovely family of angels in disguise. I am so sorry you even have to be on this site, but thank God you found it. We can thank Steve Cain for starting this site and for 5 years it's kept me alive and I've gotten stronger because of it.