Thank you so much, there is already a walk scheduled this year in San Antonio on September 30th.  I will be getting with my church and the charity organization I belong to and getting their involvement, maybe even more.  I would like you to post this to all so anyone else that wants to may get out and help.  Our fundraising group is a 501C3 and part of an international group as well as one on the Texas state level.  Suicide of teens in particular has been a focus ouf these groups since the increase lately.  Thank YOU!

@Joyce - I guess I stopped trying to describe how I feel to other people. Those who haven't experienced something like this often want to, but don't know how.

After so many losses in a row, I've finally learned to rely on myself and comfort myself. It is wonderful though to find someone who CAN relate.

Joyce, I'm so sorry you lost your brother. My brother shot himself too. It seems so harsh to just come right out and say it . . . but then, it is important to speak in truths and lay it all out on the table sometimes.  I'm pretty hard on myself for having these absolutely down in the dumps days. It has been exactly two months today. Certainly that cannot be enough time for the tears to dry? I don't know what normal is. I will try all I can though to accept a new normal and move forward.

Thank you for your prayers Joyce i really appreciate it especially today. Its actually his first birthday that he has been gone and my first birthday without him. It was very hard for me n of course i started crying. I know it gets easier but its still hard t deal with. This site or forum does helps me alot. i put my emotions everytime i could on here. it does help. My prayers goes out to u as well your family. Take care of yourself and stay in touch. :) *hugs*

Thank you for your prayers Joyce i really appreciate it especially today. Its actually his first birthday that he has been gone and my first birthday without him. It was very hard for me n of course i started crying. I know it gets easier but its still hard t deal with. This site or forum does helps me alot. i put my emotions everytime i could on here. it does help. My prayers goes out to u as well your family. Take care of yourself and stay in touch. :) *hugs*

Thank you for your prayers Joyce i really appreciate it especially today. Its actually his first birthday that he has been gone and my first birthday without him. It was very hard for me n of course i started crying. I know it gets easier but its still hard t deal with. This site or forum does helps me alot. i put my emotions everytime i could on here. it does help. My prayers goes out to u as well your family. Take care of yourself and stay in touch. :) *hugs*

Thank you for your prayers Joyce i really appreciate it especially today. Its actually his first birthday that he has been gone and my first birthday without him. It was very hard for me n of course i started crying. I know it gets easier but its still hard t deal with. This site or forum does helps me alot. i put my emotions everytime i could on here. it does help. My prayers goes out to u as well your family. Take care of yourself and stay in touch. :) *hugs*

Thank you for your prayers Joyce i really appreciate it especially today. Its actually his first birthday that he has been gone and my first birthday without him. It was very hard for me n of course i started crying. I know it gets easier but its still hard t deal with. This site or forum does helps me alot. i put my emotions everytime i could on here. it does help. My prayers goes out to u as well your family. Take care of yourself and stay in touch. :) *hugs*