Hello Juanita you are welcome. I thank God for this site so we can all be encouraged. May God bless you and give you much Peace. Sorry to hear about your loss but I believe we all are inthis together and share a common experience though it may not be identical we all can witness the pain of loosing our loved ones. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org reach out to me anytime. I too have been through a lot of pain and suffering but God is my comforter. Melissa
dear janita, i have lost many loved ones,some suddenly and some slowly,but never with the violence of action that you did.i too ,believe you surely must be suffering from post traumatic stress.the build up of stress hormones coursing through your system can take an incredibly long time to work its way out.exercise can help,but i'd like to recommend massage...it releases good hormones and licensed massage therapists are expected to be good listeners. At a rate of about sixty five dollars and hour they are less expensive than a talk therapist. i'd definitely tell the massage therapist up front about the tragic death of your husband,so she can decline and or refer you to another mt ,if she is not comfortable with grie
f processing. i wish peace for you and your loved ones.
I am so sorry for your loss, Please get some therapy, If their is grief support in your community, please go. You should not go through this alone, I can tell you, time heals, but you will never forget. You could have PTS. It took me years to even admit he committed suicide. Do you have family support? A best girlfriend that you can share your thoughts with. This will take time and everyone is different on how to deal with the loss of a love one. I can't imagine! But you can get help. Please keep in touch and I hope you can remember the good times. Be kind to yourself, stay busy, smile everyday and plant a garden. It helps.
As I read your words, I got sick at my stomach. There is nothing I can say that will help take your pain away. My husband died 4 mos ago of cancer. I miss him terribly but my heart goes out to you. I will keep you and your family and his fanily in my prayers that God will help you deal with this terrible tragedy.
I am so sorry to hear about your husband. I can't imagine how painful and traumatizing that must have been. Are you seeing a therapist? I am sure you are suffering from post traumatic stress. My daughter suffered from it after she found my son Kenny who also shot himself. It is a terrible thing to see and endure. I hope you are getting help to cope with this. My daughter got rapid eye movement therapy to help her not have so many flash backs. Be kind to yourself and know that we are here as your cyber friends to offer support in your grief. Bless you.