Hi Julie YOur son is very handsome. They are such special people to us. So much a part of our own soul. and happiness. I am still having a hard time. I really don't expect it to ever get much better. Maybe some. this site has been good for me. No one else in my family has suffered such a tragic loss. I hate to be the first. I try to make believe it is not true. My mind fights with it a lot. And everything makes me sad. American Idol made me sad last season. And this season so far. It makes me sad but didn't seem to be as bad. Going out makes me sad. The sadness is just a replacement for the love. I guess It doesn't replace it but the love generated the sadness. The mind doesn't give up. I have talked to a few people and want to go to compassionate friends. I want to talk about him. But I find my mind works on that too so I can understand how people don't want to talk about it. Life as I knew it is forever changed... Love to you carrie L
Julie, I am so sorry to hear about your son!! I can truefully say I know exactly how you feel, as it was only a day apart for our two children passing away. I was in shock up until a week ago and then realization set in and now the least little thing can bring on the tears, anxiety and an overall lost feeling that I can not quite shake. My daughter Shana had diabetes, Addison Disease and Thyroid Disease but neither of these were the culprit, if had been she would still be alive, no she died from an aneurism that came unexpectantly and took her right a way! If you need someone to talk to when the words do come, I will be here.....I never, nor does anyone who has lost a child, could ever imagine such sorrow and grief in my life.