Yes we share that pain and not a second of the day goes by that I don't think of Bronda. But I know she would want me to go on and you must also. I know we have a long hard road ahead of us. But with Gods help we will make it through this. I know our babies are angels looking down on us and I also know one day we will also get to see them again.
There are days that I feel like I can't go on but I must as I have a son and a grand baby on the way. He or she will be here in June. I just wish Bronda was here to help us spoil it.
You have a daughter that needs you too and ya'll can help each other threw this just put your faith in God. He has a plan for each of us, sometimes we may not understand it at the time and it is very hard to do also. But God loves you and he gave his only son for us so we all know the pain he went through when his son hung on the cross.
I've lost my mother, father, a sister, aunts, uncles and many more family members but nothing can compare to the pain of losing your own child.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and take time for yourself and do something nice for you.
Hugs to you and when you sleep angles on your pillow.
How are you doing today? Thanks for mention the I am a very positive person. How I do that? I don't know.... after just lost a husband October 26, 2009 less than a month ago, I am on terrible pain too.
I feel that sometimes God uses me to help another people in need. Sometimes my words even surprises myself. I always have been very positive in life, and optimistic. Even when my beloved husband was alive. I always have been the stronger in our marriage. Husband was negative, and worried all the time, about things that even not happened yet. What a time and energy consuming. Besides be stronger in our marriage, I had to help him emotionally and physically taking care of him while his health was deteriorating faster. He was a dialysis patient for 2 years, he had his treatment 3 times a week(lasting 4 hours each) he was so weak and frail. I was exausted both mentally and physically, stressed out. But I always encouraged & comforted him. Sometimes I cried,of fustration. Wishing I could make him feel better somehow. It hurted me see him suffering Julie. I guess God saw that. I tried everything I could to help him, but his time came. Like each one of us, one day we all gonna die, and go to heaven. Life is just a short journey in this world, our physical body dies but not our spirit. It will live in another form of life in the spiritual world. A place that we call heaven(for believers like me) Kids Like Kimberlie born as an Angel to make a difference in this world, and make change in our lives. Just be thankful to God for have her for 17 years. Sorry ho hear that her condition put strain in your marriage, and the father didn't give you the support when you needed it the most. Maybe he couldn't take the pain in see his daughter like that. I am pround of you Julie for being such a supportive and good mother to Kimberlie. Seems to me that you like to carry everything in your shoulder by yourself, without bother anyone, not even Stephanie your oldest daughter. Sweetie you can't do it alone, let your daughter comfort you, friends, and family as well.
Was not your fault that Kimberlie born with a condition. Do not blame yourself OR feel guilty for what happened to her. She was suffering, soon or later it would happen. Tell me something would you like to keep your loved Kimberlie suffering and unhappy forever? Please answer yourself that, be honest. I think you know the answer better than I do. How about yourself? I can even imagine how hard it was for you to see your daughter disable, and deal with that for long 17 years Julie. You must be drain. You know what you are a very STRONG woman. But your pain can't allow you to see it. You did very well...you cared for Kimberlie, alone without her father, loved her as much as you could....and I am sure you did everything to help her.
Now is time for you take care of yourself Julie. You can't forget that Kimberlie is gone, but you still ALIVE, and must go on. Sometimes God place us in a
very difficult situation OR circustances to test our faith on him. Have faith in God Julie, knowing that your daughter is well in his arms, and looking after you as an angel. You have to be kind with yourself. You are strong because you took care of Kimberlie for such a long time, you survived your divorce....so you can make it now AGAIN. I am sure you can...please stand up and move on. like I mentioned before your beloved Kimberlie is alive in your heart, and she wants you too be happy and move on. Now is your time to take care of yourself Julie. Have faith you must continue your life journey in this world. Hold in there. You daughter and God are beside you. Take step by step. You need to whish to help yourself too okay. Start be accepting that Kimberlie is gone, and is nothing you can do to change it. You did you best under you abilities. Don't hurt yourself anymore Julie.
Look around you, how many people cares and loves you? Look at the sky, smell the flowers, see how beautiful things are around you? Take a walk...do something special just for you...you deserve it!
I will be praying for you....and I am confident that you will get better and move on with your life. Pain must of time make us stronger.
I am here for you....okay.
Hi Kathy,,Thank you for responding. Kimberlie was 17 years old. I was very lucky to have her for 17 years because when she was born the doctors told us she would not live past 72 hours and she beat those odds.
I understand your pain, as a mother. Please try to understand that your daughter Kimberlie was on pain, and suffering. She was sick. I know how much you love you daughter but you need to find strenght, because your 24 years old daughter probably doesn't need you like Kimberlie did.....but she needs her MOM too, also she LOVES you. She still your daughter. How about your husband he needs you too Julie. Your daughter Kimberlie is an Angel now....your angel looking after you. You need to accept that she not long in here, she is in heaven and the best of all NO more pain. I am sure that she wants you to be happy and going on with your life. You must do it for yourself and your family. Remember Kimberlie always will be alive in your heart, and memories. The pain will never go away....but with time it will get better. God doesn't give us more than we can take. Have faith. You can do it! That was nothing that you could do anymore for Kimberlie, don't feel guilty of anything, let it go. Pray for your daughter, write her a letter try to read a book about loss of a child. You sound very depressed. I am praying for you, just be strong and trust God. Everything happen for a reason okay. God bless you and give you strenght. I am here for you if you need me.
Take care of yourself.
Dear Julie I am so sorry for your loss of Kimberlie.
I take my life 1 second, 1 minute, 1 hour, then 1 day at a time. I use to take my life one day now I have to break it down to seconds and minutes.
I lost my Bronda-Maye July 12th. I know the pain you are going through. She was killed in a car accident.
I don't know why God took our babies so soon but he had better plans for them than we did. I was so angry at God for taking Bronda-Maye as she was my baby even though she was 23yrs old. My husbands only child.
I dread the holidays this year it will be the first year without her on my birthday, hers then Christmas.
I just found out that I am going to be a GM in June as my son is having a child then, we are praying it's a girl. If so the middle name will be Maye.
I know your Kimberlie is with God and shes looking down on you saying don't worry about me mommy. We have angels watching over us and I know they will always be in our hearts and souls.
If you ever want to talk to me here is my email address... Lady_teddybear_566@hotmail.com
I will keep you and your family in my prayers as I know the pain. I just want to reach out and give you a big hug and let you know that you aren't alone here.
May God watch over you.
Dear Julie It is normal to feel what you are feeling i also asked why did god take my wonderful son from me.We have a real tough road in front of us,now that the holidays are among us things are even going to hit me the hardest because he loved to hang the lights all around the house.take care of yourself my friend
I am so sorry that you lost your wonderful daughter Kimberlie. You didn't mention how old was she. I've a daughter too who is 24 yrs. old, she is my only child, and can't even thinking my life without her. She and God is what keep me going. I just lost my beloved husband October 26, 2009 less than a month now. I am on pain too, but loss of a child most be the worse pain a parent specially a mother have to go through. But Remember Julie, she is not suffering anymore when we love someone we don't want them to suffer right? I know how difficult and devastating it feels right now. But I am sure God in guiding, and comforting you. Your daughter always will be in your heart & memories, and she is your angel now looking after you, her mother. Do you have any other kids?
My heart goes out for you Julie, whishing I could give you a big hug and make you feel better. My god give Julie strenght in this terrible loss of her daughter, comfort her, take care of her and loved ones.
Julie I am here if you need someone to talk to.
Hang in there....it hurts I know, but your daughter doesn't want to see you suffering. Remember the good times you both shared together okay.
I am praying for you.....God bless you Julie!
Hi Julie so sorry for the lost of your daughter,It's been almost four months that my oldest son died of liver disease at the age of 37 and I really don't think that we will ever get over it. I still have a real hard time with him not being here anymore,it feel like a bad dream.I do get comfort with this site and you will find that there are others that are feeling the same feelings that we are having please feel free to write we are hear for you. God Bless you and your family.