Julie, I can't imagine what you went threw. I am so sorry for your lost. You must be an exceptional lady, strong and someone to admire. You see I met Richie when I was 18 years old and he saved my life. I was a heavy drug user and he got me clean he was always by my side in good and bad. he gave me that white picket fence and a good life. I'm 50 years old and never been by myself. When ever there was a problem he knew how to take care of it. He even started my car in the winter for me so I didn't have to. He made my son who was 22 years old oatmeal every morning which was my sons favorite.I don't know how to live without him. He was the one who really knew me and loved me. My parents put me away when I was young didn't want no part of me. But Richie as good as he was always said that is your mother. The day after his funeral my mother called me a c--t and nothing but trouble since I was born.My tears are falling so much I Never told no one that before.My brother died of aids in 1987 and myparents wouldn't even let me say goodbye. Instead they called me up in the middle of the night and said I wouldn't bother you but your brother wanted me to call you. Now you some of the pain I feeling and the big hole in my heart, Thank you for listening even though I"m crying I feel a lot better. Thank you so much.Your words of wisdom will always stay in my heart.
Thank you, Julie I will try my best to be positive. And there are days I am but there are days I feel sorry for myself. I have no family of his or mine so it all builds up inside. And I think my friends don't want to talk because they know it will upset me.
Julie, just went to your site. I can't stop crying for you. I can't even imagine what you go through everyday. So many people that I have met on these posts have humbled me. Wonderful people including yourself. I will pray for you and we will get to the next step together with each others help and support. We can and will learn a lot from each other. Thank you so much.