that's the problem, finding new friends. All the people I know are users and dealers. We didn't have a social circle, we pretty much kept to ourselves. I am not using now, I really only did with him. Now that he's gone I have no real desire, well sometimes I do but I have a supportive family. Sometimes they just don't understand the need for drugs, the need for something, the fact that there seems to be something missing in your life. My mom passed away about 4 years ago, liver failure caused by percocet and tylenol. I| never really recoverered from taht and met my boyfriend after and it was downhill from there, now that he's gone I feel so lost and alone.