Posted on December 24, 2009 at 10:25am
I HAVE A VERY HARD TIME GETTING THROUGHT CHRISTMAS WITHOUT MY SON MICHAELM HE ALWAYS WAS EXCITED ABOUT CHRISTMAS. EVEN THOUGH HE WAS 31 HE WAS LIKE ALITTLE KID, I MISS HIM WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND IT DOES NOT GET ANY EASIER FOR ME ONLY HARDER, I LOVE HIM NOW AND FORVER AND MAYBE ONE DAY THE TEARS AND THE PAIN WILL STOP FOR ME!!!!!! MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH ALL OF YOU WHOHAVE LOST A CHILD NO MATTER WHAT THEIR AGE WAS. TRY TO HAVE A GOOD HOLIDAY.
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Hi Karen I go on here in the mornings it seems to be a place of connectiveness. Moms are my favorite because I know they feel like I do.. with everything reminding them of their precious babies.. and I cry often because it is very sad. this site has vbeen a bit weird even people have named me as friends and haven't spoken a word to me. (well written) Maybe I should delete them from my friends. Your child was older than mine. and I want to say you are lucky that he had lived that long. But I like you wanted them to outlive me.... i had no idea about death before this it was never spoken.. i wish it had of been. the how and the why are so prevalent in my mind. and then the reality because it comes through often. I wish it weren't this way and I wish a lot... but I am stuck with this.. His beautiful memories from the time he was born.. until that horrific time in life. the time i want to go away.... i will miss him forever. he was so alive. and life seems so dull without his perspectiv e and love and all he was.. carrie L
Hi Karen I am like you constantly in sadness and thought about this horrible tragedy that has bestowed on us. Wishing there were some comfort in my imidiate world. but people reallly don't understand if it is their child they would but the odds are their children are still alive. I did meet a gal at work that her child was gone and she did not cry about it. as i don't always cry. but the memories are so vivid. and it is always sadness that they are gone. yes i am happy for his life and his birth and the years i had. but i wanted more and i still want more and i cannot have more. but he would not want me to constantly cry. he would want me to smile.. but it is hard. i would not know how to explain it to him but he was life. and life without him is something different. it is life but it is life after this carrie L
thank you for so much and my thoughts and prayers go out to you during this difficult time.
Also, you're right, they are cruel and monsters in my eyes...
I received your email and had to respond to you. I lost my son Joey on June 20, 2008 to suicide when he was 26 years old. There is not a day that goes by when I am not thinking about him. I do know how you are feeling. . .lost and alone without him. I have joined another group online called AngelMoms which I think would be very helpful to you. If you want their address it is: Angelmoms2@yahoogroups.com. I have met many wonderful moms on this site and there is always someone to talk to. All of us are in this together, unfortunately. Please go on the site and give your information, and you will be added to our page. I truly believe this will benefit you. I'm sorry we have this burden to bear, but we do. I don't know why, but we do. I care Karen. . .
Debbie, Mom to ^i^Joey
How are you? I am so sorry for the loss of your son 7 years ago, in such a terrible accident. Yes, he was so young just 31 years old and a lot to live for. Unfortunately, Karen things happen in our lives that is out of our control. My husband of 10 years, just passed away less than a month. It happened of sudden on October 26, 2009. I am on so much pain too. God and my only daughter, is the reason I keep going. I understand your pain because I am mother too, and I can't even imagine the pain that you are going through. It must be unbearable Karen. Remember everything happens for a reason, sometimes we do not understand and even question God WHY??? We get angry and don't accept the loss of our loved ones. It hurts, so much specially if lost your child so sudden and unexpected. Sometimes God place us a very painful and difficult situation to test our faith on him. He called your son back to heaven to become your angel, and look after you. You should have faith and be thankful to God for the 31 years that you spended with your son. Your son still alive in your heart and memories. Each one of us come to this life with a mission and time to born and die. This life is a journey, we all gonna die one day. Death is not the end, only our physical body dies but not our spirit it will live forever in the spiritual world which we call 'heaven' for believers like me. You must find strenght and keep moving forward Karen, one day you will be reunited with your son again, after your mission is over in this earth. I know holidays will never be the same without our loved ones. It will be my first holiday without my husband.
Do you have husband? If yes, you're so luck!
If not, look around you how many people loves, and need you Karen? Was he the only child? Was he married?
You are in my thoughts and prayers Karen. Be strong okay. Your son wants you to be happy, and continue your life, he is next to you as an angel.
I am here if you need someone to talk to.
God bless you and give you strenght.