I don,t feel so much dizzy or lightheaded..but just "off" my normal self..I can also notice, if I look in the mirror, my eyes are smaller, and glassy. The last two days have been REALLY bad...worse bought in over a year. Usually,…"
"Dear Kaela ... When Ernie passed away I was in shock, but thought I was functioning fairly well. I was not. I couldn't concentrate, had aches/pains, sometimes felt nauseated, wanted to stay indoors a lot and other days had a…"
"Hmmm, that definitely sounds like something to keep and mind and get tested for should my fatigue not improve with meds and more time to grieve. I have had low grade fevers like that several times throughout these 6 months. It is also interesting…"
"Yup..it stays in your system your entire life. About 95% of the human race has it in them, but it mostly goes unnoticed with noroblems. It is the Hepetitus D visual. My guess is you had chicken pox as a kid,which most of us do...and then it usually…"
"Dear Kaela ... Please don't feel you are having bipolar episodes. When we grief our brain as I said before absorbs shock and mood swings certainly can happen, but it's normal. I remember shortly after Ernie's…"
I am sorry to hear about your husband. Here I feel so disoriented after 10 years together, and I can't imagine how disoriented I'd feel after 45 years together.
Your response and advice is so comforting. I definitely have PTSD…"
"Hi Mary Jane,
Thank you so much for validating the way I feel. I did not get tired spells to this extent before this happened. I'd get the normal, tired after a long day at work on my feet all day (preschool teacher) tired, but nothing like…"
"Thank you Deborah. That is so terrible to lose 2 husbands. I admire you for being able to stand upright and are still having the courage to move forward despite tremendous loss. That is so comforting to me.
Thank you for reminding me to not sell myself short and that I am doing more than I realize.
Yeah, I have reservations about going on meds but I just can't take feeing like this anymore right now. I hope to eventually be like you…"
"Kaela.....Working on your masters is huge so don't sell yourself short. It takes strength to put the effort in and focus. That's your work and it's probably helping even if you don't see it right now. My doctor…"
I think it is so wonderful that you are able to work. At this point I am not able to do much of anything except manage to take my classes and get my work done(currently a grad student getting my masters) but thankfully I don't have…"
"Kaela......It's hard to describe what it feels like but it's just this anxiety that builds inside me and I have this overwhelming nervous feeling. In the beginning, I would take a pill and lay there for a little bit until it kicked…"
I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through and I can literally relate so well. It is also comforting to me that theres someone out there who is experiencing the same thing. Its interesting you say 5-6 am because that is when I…"
"Kaela.....I too had to take anti-anxiety meds when I first lost my husband which was 20 months ago. Also, the early morning hours, usually 5:00-6:00 am seemed to be when panic really set in. I assumed it was because I'd have to get…"