"Hi Sarah. My daughter (age 43) took her own life 1 1/2 years ago. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me. She lost her only child at age 14, 4 years. A year after that her husband left her for another woman. I guess…"
"My dad came to once (during a dream, maybe, not sure)...I was having marital problems and wanted to leave my husband. I was so confused. Then one nite, I was praying really hard for an answer and all of a sudden my Dad was walking…"
"Dear Mark. first I am so sorry for your loss. I want to tell you about my daughter Marlene who took her own life on Mar 11, 2011 after a lot of issues and heartache. I know she is now at the peace that she so desparately…"
"@ Gloria, Its been 13 months since my daughter took her life. It is getting easier,,,however not better. It never will be better. I actually got through Easter services with only a few tears...The tears still come sometimes…"
"@ Emalee. I am so sorry for you. You are so young to have to go through this. My daughter Marlene took her own life mar 12, 2011. She left her sister (11 months younger than) alone. Diane has gone through so many different…"
"@Hope. It has been a week more than 1 year since my Marlene took her own life. i can say it is easier but it will never get better. That is not a correct word. Give yourself time. I have read a couple of good books that have…"
"Donna you are saved by the grace of God. Faith and accepting Jesus as your savior and knowing that he died for YOU is enough. All of your sins are forgiven. That has been a difficult one for me.....But it is true...everyone has…"
"@Donna. I understand first hand about your grieving. I have a similar life pattern. I think that I am at least in a different stage of grief for each of the persons that I have lost in the last 8 years. (Husband, sister, brother,…"
"Hi Theresa...Sometimes I feel strong and then again I feel like I just want to melt into a mud puddle. I stll can't say that Marlene did the "S" thing. Usually just say that "she took her own life"..that just…"
"I don't know if I am supposed to do this on this site, but I am going to anyway! I just finished 2 excellent books and am starting another. "90 minutes in Heaven, Heaven is for real, and just starting "And she was a…"
"Thank you all for the b-day wish and for believing that my Marlene sent me the rose...She will be gone a year on March 12. I am bringing my daughter Diane out to Texas to be with me. She is still having a difficult time too. We…"
"I have to share with everyone what happened last Friday. It was my birthday and while waiting for another couple to meet us for dinner, my husband and I went for a walk on the Tampa Bay and I was walking along and doing a lot of thinking about…"
"Dear Elizabeth. I am so sorry about your niece. My daughter will be gone 1 year on Mar 12. Her situation is very much like your niece. Except that her husband divorced her after their only child died of a siezure in…"
"Dear Carin..and all the rest of you...As you have all said, we all have gone through the same feelings....I can't imagine your having had to find your son...I was fortunate (for want of a different word) I live 1400 miles away and Marlene was…"
"I like all the rest of you are grieving at what should be such a wonderful time of a year. I just miss my Marlene so much but know that she is where she belongs...with her savior and her son. That doesn't make the hurt be any less,…"
"To Rebecca. We have the same questions. After being told by the local police that it was suicide deal with it, and have 2 PI take our money and do nothing we are now in the process of writing a letter to DATELINE and see if they will…"
"Theresa, I too have times of guilt for my daughter. I thought I was helping her by talking about suicide and why she shouldn't do it and all the things she had to live for. And she told me what I wanted to hear I guess. That…"
"@lost mom....again me. I look at it that God loaned me Marlene and Robert for the 14 years and 43 years. They showed me a lot of things about faith and God and I would not have known. And like all things on loan, they have to…"
I dont know what to say...I cant even answer my own questions and all the guilt and evil that goes with it.
A hospital let my son go from the ""ER"" just hours before he ran in front of a semi on the interstate. He had been telling them for at least 2yrs that I know of. I just want to go to that hospital and see how they would like it if one of their kids, grown or not, died by suicide !!! I cant imagine what you are feeling since you have compound issues. I will pray for you tho, I can do that !! Im not on here but maybe once a week cause I just feel....well...what can anyone do really??? Everyone cares but so what, wont bring my son back. HE SHOULDNT HAVE DIED LIKE THAT !!!
I guess all of us have something that brings the memories rushing back. Another song that brings back memories is the song from Titanic "My Heart Will Go On" by Celine. Robi had never cried at a movie before, but couldn't stop crying with that song. After that she cried every time she heard it. It made her mad because she always picked on me for crying during movies, and afterward she couldn't anymore.
I pretty much have my Husband Larry and what happened in the back of my mind at all times. You might be keeping busy enough that you can think about other things. I'm supposed to start a new job this coming Monday. I lost my job of almost 30 years 20 days PRIOR to my Husband's death. I carried the health insurance as he was disabled and depressed and after 3 years of being given a hard time at work I was also depressed. It makes for a very low energy level. And finding a job in that state is extra difficult. Sometimes you feel like "life" is a chore "going through the motions" I don't know what situation took your Daughter and Grandson, but I'm sorry for your loss.
This is my story also Karen. Kim's suicide came after her divorce (and a bunch of related issues). She took her life on Jan 21 of this year. Tomorrow will be 8 months for us. Good days and bad days are the norm around our house. I would like to suggest you make contact with a group called The Surviving Project. Has been very helpful for me and just might be the answer for you. www.thesurvivingproject.com Hugs and warm wishes for some healing. ~ Jo