Hello Karen, just checking in, shouldn't ask because I know, but how are you?

No apologies needed Karen, praying for you so that you can make it thru your birthday without too much heartache, was off today, so went to get my hair done, cried while sitting at the chair, cried some more when I got home while cooking, what can I say, I know you understand, never cried so much in my life, my son had a talk with me today, said I have to dig really deep to get out of this depression, said he has not accepted his father's death but has made peace with the fact that he needs to realize he will not be coming back & that we all need to go on without his presence although always remembering him with love, it is different for them, their lives will go on but ours ceased to be the way we were used to & their is no future to look forward to any longer, yes I will be a grandma this year but that also makes me think that he would have also wanted to be here to enjoy being a grandpa, my emotions are mixed, happy but at the same time, missing him more & more.

Prayers & hugs to you,

Elvira