Who I Am
I'm in my 2nd marriage. The first time, I got pregnant and got married at the age of 16. My 17th birthday was in April and Jon was born on May 28. I also had a 2nd son, David with my 1st husband. My Ex and I grew apart and divorced. One month after my divorce was final, I married my 2nd husband.(I was very Co-Dependent and thought I couldn't survive without a man in my life). We will be having our 30 anniversary in Nov.
We have 3 children together. Noah, who died when he was 7wks old, Jason, and our daughter Elizabeth. Jon died on June 29,2009. I am very close with my kids and my granddaughter Maddy who is now 2 1/2. I work full time plus overtime and have a very stressful job. I strove to learn many different skills at my job of 14yrs. so I have a lot of tasks given to me. I am also Children's Minister at our church, which should be a full time job in itself. I have been a born-again Christian for 32 yrs. and in Children's Ministry for that long. I grew up spiritually teaching Sunday School. I belong to a Foursquare Church and am so very thankful that I have the Lord in my life to help me through my losses and to be there in my good times as well. I honestly don't know how I would have ever been able to make through the deaths of both of my sons without Him. I wrote all this so that those who may read it because they too have lost a child will maybe gain some hope that even though the pain never goes away, and there is always a hole in your heart that only that particular child could fill, you can move forward in life, eventually, and there are joys there just like there were with your son or daughter. I will grieve the loss of my sons until I die and am reunited with them but I will also rejoice in the love I share with my children who are still with me and strive to teach other's children how to trust Jesus in every situation. I'm sure I will have times when I will revisit this page to read my own words to remind myself of what I now type but there is hope and I will listen to or share with anyone who would want to share their pain with a friend. Blessings. Kathy