first of all i would also lay in bed and not want to get up at all just looking at the curtains per my therapist this is depression i feel myself going in and out of this. this is a good program and latch out about your feeling if you do not do this it will drive you crazy.good luck
Hey Katy,You did exactly what you're suppose to do!Don't apologize.Call it cynical or angry,we all feel it.I like you thought I was going nuts,looking forward each day to reading these posts,But I find it comforting in some way.Since I don't have my husband to talk to,I can voice my feelings here.Keep up the good work.
Thank you for your kind words about me and Robbie....I'm having a bad day today...Seems like I just can't stop crying....My birthday is next week...Robbie and me had planned to celebrate it in style because I will be turning 60...Now I will be celebrating it alone...It will be the first of many things that I will be celebrating alone...Still can't believe that he's gone...So lost at times...Try to push forwards but I seem to be going backwards....I hope that you will find peace and love someday again....Please keep in touch....
now, i left that previous comment, and i am reading thru other comments. and i get it again. i am sorry, please forgive me. i just get so depressed.
i found out last night that jim choked on his vomit. didnt know that. thought it was respiratory failure. dont know the connection. dont even care. when i heard the specificities, it was like reliving it all over again. yes, of course i have a story. but i am not going to tell it here. cuz i am exhausted, sending email drafts to myself, about what it was like those 4 weeks with him in the icu, and the months before when he was so sick i was putting his shoes and socks on for him, and taking them off, and doing everything else. dammit. he should have been hospitalized long before he was. he was only 49. there will never, ever be another man like him.
what man, routinely, gives a woman the remote, every single night, and says watch whatever you want honey. then just wants to cuddle at bedtime. (the catch? the a.m. talk radio had to be on every night; i think that is why i was the remote holder. fair is fair, huh).
My name is Denise and I lost my husband 4 months ago to lung and bile duct cancer....He only lasted 3 months after being diagnosed...We were together for 40 years..He was the love of my life....It doesn't matter how long you have been with someone...(love is love) and you lost yours...I'm still depressed over losing Robbie and everyday is a struggle...I pray for strength to get through these days but sometimes it doesn't work...We did everything together and now I'm alone...The silence is deadly at times....I miss his voice, touch and especially his hugs...They say time heals all but I think it's going to be a long time for me...I also have a very good friend who lost her husband of 42 years 3 months after my Robbie...We spend time together...Sad to think that we have this in common...Never ever thought it would happen to us....I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers....It's losing a part of yourself that's so hard...