I am so sorry for your loss. My dad passed 4/14/10. He was 71 and I took care of him for the last 16 months of his life. It was hard on me and I miss my dad but I always knew even as a little kid that we all die some day. I cried daily for two months. We all grieve differently and I know the pain you feel is yours alone and I wouldn't want to try to lessen your emotions by equating it to mine or someone else's. My first two months, time passed slowly and everything was so unreal. In those two months of wailing, I didn't think that it would get any better. It has for me. I still tear up at times and probably will for the rest of my life because he was a great man that anchored our family together. When I was grieving, I know condolences had no effect on the grief I was feeling so I don't personally think there is anything I can say to help. God loves you and your father is in a better place now. Here's a comforting video on youtube.
KENA I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS .I LOST MY MOTHERWHO WAS MY BEST FRIEND 5 YEARS AGO.AND THOUGHT IWOULD HAVE A NRVEOUS BREAKDOWN. BUT WHAT WAS REALY BAD IS MY FATHER ,WHO WAS ALSO HER BEST FRIEND WAS DIEING,ON THE INSIDE ALSO WITHOUT HER .THEN 4 YEARS LATER .1YEAR THIS MARCH HE PASSED AWAY PEACEFULY ALSO.KNOW I HAVE NO-ONE PEOPLE SAY YOU GET OVER IT BUT YOU DONT THERES ALWAYS A PART A BIG PART OF YOUR HEART GONE.
How do I find a way to quit thinking about suicide? Since my Daddy died, I really do not want to be here. I know that I have so much to live for....my children, my future grandson, my mother, my friends....nothing seems to matter without my Dad. I want to be with him. No, I have never felt like this before....just since the death of my Dad. I NEED HIM.......HELP!!!!!
I know how you are feeling right now. My father passed on 3/22/10. I am lost without him here to talk and laugh with. I know that it would break his heart to know that I am hurting so much. So I try to remember the happy times and face each day as bravely as he did. I let myself have what I call meltdowns and I let my heart have time to hurt each day. But after I allow that I promise him that the rest of the day I will be ok for him.
I try to remember that this too will pass and that all the memories that hurt me now will be sweet moments of him that I can have in years to come.