Glad you to hear it. I’m sure you can , and you will. It’s completely natural to feel as you do. It will be a daily struggle for you and it will take it’s own time to reach a leveling off as it were. Don’t let others dictate to you as to when that should be. We all suffer differently. And no. You are not at all being selfish. It’s not uncommon for people to ask why not take someone who is suffering? It really seems logical when one has so much to live for or planned . Yet many have been taught that God needed them and took them. It’s not always comforting to hear that, especially when that person was needed here to. They best way to know for sure to that question is to look at the Bible.

God created humans with a yearning to live forever. At Ecclesiastes 3:22 it says he put “ a sense of eternity in their hearts.” He did more than give us the desire to live forever, he gave humans the opportunity to do so.

No doubt you are familiar with the story of our first parents Adam and Eve who were created perfect, no defect in mind and body. (Deuteronomy 32:4). Placed in a lovely paradise, God purposed that man would live forever fill the earth with perfect offspring. (Genesis 1:31, 2:15) So why do we die?

God commanded Adam “From every tree of the garden you may eat to satisfaction. But as for the tree of the knowledge of good and bad you must not eat from it, for in the day you eat from it you will positively die.” (Genesis 2:16,17) Eternal life was condition for Adam and Eve. It depended upon obedience to God.

Tragically in Genesis 3:1-6 we know how they disobeyed God’s law. In doing so, they became sinners, 1 John 3:4 says “sin is lawlessness.” As a result, Adam and Eve lost the prospect of eternal life. Why? Romans 6:23 tells us “the wages sin pays is death.”

Adam and Eve now had sin and death become part of their make up. Hence they could not produce perfect offspring, any more than an imperfect mold can produce a perfect object. (Job 14:4) Every human birth is a confirmation that our first parents lost perfect health and life for themselves and us, their offspring. Paul wrote “Through one man sin entered into the world and death through sin, and thus death spread to all men because they had all sinned.”


Today scientists can‘t pinpoint why we grow old and die. They even can acknowledge that in accord with the first scripture I quoted from, the human body really should keep going. .
The Bible, however, explains that we die because we are born sinful, having inherited this condition from our first human parents. But know why we die may beg they question why does God let us die or suffer as we do? And if he’s not taking us when he feels it is time based on the scriptures in the Bible, what happens when we really die?

But right now I just wanted to share that with you hope you feel assured that your feeling is completely natural . Because despite it seeming natural, death is not, was never meant to be and why it feels so wrong and hurts so much. God has promised that “As the last enemy, death is to be brought to nothing.” at 1 Corinthians 15:26, he promises to you too where the scripture says “You are opening your hand and satisfying the desire of every living thing.” (Psalm 145:16) Yes indeed you can see Kevin again.