Hi, My name is Kim I'm new to the support group and I'm writing because I've had two people in my life that I have loved commit suicde. One of my good friends Aaron commited sucide 14 years ago at the age of 24 and I have forgiven him but even after 14 years I still get upset on the anniversary of his death which was March 17. I've been able to get through that with time. I am however struggling in the sucide of my 12 year old sons father he was 33 who died Sept 9, 2009 leaving no explaination on why. I don't know what happen in his life to get him to that point where he didn't think he could get help or feel that alone that troubled. He was estranged from my son for quite somtime but it is still his father and I did love him. I will never forget the night I recieved a phone call from a detective out of Jacksonville telling me of Tommy's passing. I just hurt when I think about it and wish he knew all he had to do was call me, my parents, his sister someone. I sometimes think of how alone he must of felt in that hotel room before he shot himself. Why he thought that was the only way out of whatever situation he was in. I'm very angry that my son will never get to know his father. The only thing good that came out of this situation is that my son has been reunited with his Aunt (his fathers sister) as she is stuggling to come to terms also. I haven't told my son the truth about his fathers death I feel at his age he wouldn't understand because I don't understand it myself. I know don't when and if there is a right time to tell him on how his father died. I just wish I knew how to handle this.