Dear Lori, thanks for the advice. I am sure that when they ask they are only doing out of concern for me. I guess on the outside it seems that I am doing OK,and when asked I always say I am fine. I do believe in God and hope that one day we will be toghter in some way again. God Bless you,Jerry
I lost my husband in a work accident as well. We were together for 6 years, married for three months. It's been a little over a year now. I still feel the same way that you do. Only now I have a little more strength to control my jealousy and resentment. I can't stand listening to a story about couples fighting or just daily complaints of everyday life without thinking, "what i would give for that to be my problem again." But somehow you learn how to deal with what you're feeling and how to keep it quiet when necessary. But what you are feeling is totally normal. Keep your chin up!
I have felt the same as you are feeling now. I lost my husband of 32 years on December 19, 2006. I too, was jealous, bitter and very angry at the world. Don't supress these feelings as it is a way to express your grief. Allow yourself to grieve in your way and not the way that other's tell you that there is a different way. My prayers and thoughts are with you.