Thank you Larry.  Actually I have found closure, I think.  I did get to read my brother's note that he left.  It really didn't bring much comfort but I've almost gotten myself to realize that there wasn't probably anything more I could have done.  It has made me realize how much we need to tell those around us how much we love them and how important they are to us, not just to assume they know it.  I know my brother knew I loved him and I will see him again someday and each day that passes brings me just that much closer to that day.  I miss him terribly and I have my days but the brighter days are more often now and he would want it that way.  But thank you so much for your post, it does help even when a stranger takes the time to show they care.  God bless you in 2012!