On November 18th, it will be five long months since I lost my Mom.  The guilt and regrets are still there; however, I can tell you that it is not as bad. I live in another state from my Mom and getting back after she died was not an easy task. But I managed to go a few weeks back, and it really did me good.  I was able to go the cemetery and have a good talk with her, and my Dad.  I felt as though she could hear me and understand; and somehow made me feel better. I did the same things we did…