What To Do Now
Holidays are hard to get through.
Whether the experience is old or whether it’s new.
I’m at a point where I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know how to not feel blue.
What can I do to make things better?
I write things down in a poem or a letter.
Sometimes I’m confident I can do well.
Other times I feel like I’m in Hell.
I want to move forward from this.
I desperately need things that I still miss.
I don’t know how to get what I need.
I don’t even know how to get my sadness freed.
I try and I try to be like I was before.
Things will not be the same – not ever anymore.
I feel sorry for myself most of the time.
That’s when I sit down and make a rhyme.
I want God in my life and I need him there.
I haven’t the slightest idea how to do that or where.
I need to find out what to do next so I pray.
I pray that I can figure it out and be happy again someday.
By Linda Colleen Warriner
July 4, 2011