What To Do Now

Holidays are hard to get through.

Whether the experience is old or whether it’s new.

I’m at a point where I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know how to not feel blue.

What can I do to make things better?

I write things down in a poem or a letter.

Sometimes I’m confident I can do well.

Other times I feel like I’m in Hell.

I want to move forward from this.

I desperately need things that I still miss.

I don’t know how to get what I need.

I don’t even know how to get my sadness freed.

I try and I try to be like I was before.

Things will not be the same – not ever anymore.

I feel sorry for myself most of the time.

That’s when I sit down and make a rhyme.

I want God in my life and I need him there.

I haven’t the slightest idea how to do that or where.

I need to find out what to do next so I pray.

I pray that I can figure it out and be happy again someday.

By Linda Colleen Warriner

July 4, 2011