Lisa, I m so sorry for your loss. It is hard to dream with me too, I havent had one yet and I am going on 15 months today. I think it will happen when we are ready or we can handle it. Our Children are always around us, we just have to believe.
Holding you and Jaggar in my heart
Lisa- I do know how you feel. My grandson also had a heart defect called Taussig-Bing that was not diagnosed until he was 2 months old. He left us last October when he was 14 months old. I know well that vigil we keep in the hospital and all the machines and meds while our little ones lay there and we can't hold them. I am so very sorry for your loss. Someone here posted a saying by Edna St. Vincent Milay - "there is a hole in my world where you used to be. I walked around it all day long and at night I fall into it." I wish I could hold you. I know it won't bring him back but I could share your pain. Please keep coming here and posting. It does help.