Lori, I read your post, and I feel so bad for you. Watching someone pass,certainly isn't like we see it on TV. My entire family was with my father when we removed him from life support (5 years ago), and honestly not a day goes by that I don't relive it, to some degree. I try to take comfort in knowing he wasn't alone, that we were all with him. I take comfort in my faith that he is not alone, where he is now. But it doesn't really heal your heart or erase the images. I miss him as my father, as my childrens grandfather, and my mothers husband. God bless you, you are in my thoughts.
I just wanted to say how sorry I am for the lost of your Mother. Losing a loved one is never easy; I know that from personal experience. Just remember your mothers love will always be with you her inspiration and her confidance are gifts of love that are yours to keep. Many words will be expressed, yet we know God can and will express and provide to you and your family everything that is needed to care and sustain your hearts at this sad time. Isaiah 41:10,13