Wow Lori, we must be channel our emotions or something because yesterday was horrible for me, and I'm a little low today. My mother is all over me for some reason. I miss her so very much and can't stop thinking about her last moments, and why I couldn't have been there to hold her hand when she crossed over. I'm about to lose it right now, but you have a friend over here that is going through right along with you. If you have a picture of your mother grab it and hold it real thight to your chest and tell her over and over that you love her. This takes time, and our wounds are fresh so lets walk through this together and know that I am always here for you. Be strong, joy comes in the morning!! That was my mothers favorite saying, much love you to lady.
That was my whole idea Lori, to hug you!! We all need one every now and then especially during times like these. Your words were touching to my heart as well and I am "sure" that we will be help to each other while we are here. Stay strong and stay busy. Read books, go back to school, internet shop, do what ever you can to stay busy. And every now and then there's nothing wrong with a good cry, I do it all the time. I love my mother so much it's crazy, and the joy I find is knowing that she loved me more!! Don't run from the dreams, she may be telling you something. Invite it in even though you may be afraid, talk to her as if she was right there in your face and tell her that you're afraid of the idea of it not her then ask what is it that she needs to say!! She will let you know in time and believe you me it's positive not negative. She loves you and you of all people know she would never harm you. You can always write me when you need to. Stay blessed