I lost my mom 3 months ago as I said up above and my dad 19 years ago. IT was difficult each time as I have no siblings. Thank God I had my husband and my son to help me through these tough times. I want to say to all of you out there who have lost a loved one- whether a spouse, partner, parent of child, sibling, that the hurt does not go away. It gets slowly better day by day and there will be moments each day when something will happen or you see something and it will remind you of that person, in a good way.
I had visited my mom twice a year - as often as I could, as she lived alone for a LONG time after my dad passed. I am glad I did that. We went to Florida a lot - she LOVED that! Once she got the Alzheimer's, I felt I had already "lost" her.
I am glad we spent all those lovely days together that we had.
Thanks for reading this.