I do understand how tragic it has been for you and truly do not wish to see you give up in having faith in God. We are living in turbulent times and unforeseen occurences befalls us all. - Ecclesiastes 9:11. Also, due to our imperfection sudden deaths and tradegy befalls us all.
However, remember, God promise us a better time. Please read, Revelation 21;3,4 - God promise he will in his time - take away all of the sorrow and pain we feel today. This sytem, this current state of affairs will NEVER be a joyous system to live under. It is ruled by those who enjoy displaying the air of the God of this System of Things. (2 Corinthians 4:4)
It is not within man's power to rule themselves (Jeremiah 1:2). So, what we are all experiencing is in fact due to our imperfecton and the result of our first parents who disobeyed God. However, we still have the hope of living under better condition in the near future if we seek out God and examine his words "Bible.."
So, do not loose your faith in God - he is what we need to bring an end to all of the unhappiness that plague mankind today.
As of yesterday, I have lost 9 of my family members since last Nov. of 09. The pain is devistating and I feel like I too am in a whirlwind of emotions. But, my religion teaches me, "To be absent from this body is to be present with the Lord". What more could we want? Still the pain is there and please believe me when I say, This is a time of turbulance in your life and it will pass for you and for me. We have to have faith that there is an afterlife and that, "Jesus" went to prepare us a mansion, that where he is, we shall be also. You and I shall get through this, just believe and breathe. God Bless you.
Lost: It is natural to loose our faith when a loved one dies, I lost my husband 6 years ago, and I was very angry with God, I yelled and screamed at him, for 3 yrs. But then I realized God does not punish us by taking our loved ones, each of us are on a journey through this world, loved ones are loaned to us, Im sorry for your pain Lost, I hope that by talking here you might find some kind of peace, as all of us have been through this pain, God Bless