Michelle, I too wish I could help us both. I've have always been the fix all. I lived for my Family 100% . He was my rock. He had wisdom beyond his years. At this point all I try to remember is he always told me it will all work out. Right now I'm not sure because he was my all and without him all I do is cry. I'm so tahnkful for your words.. This made me feel like I'm not alone.. Thank you for this so much..
please dont leave my heart.. i cant breath, i cant live with this pain inside me i know it was time for you to go...but stay with me please...i cant make this alone now i know..i get everything you ever did and meant.. everything inside me is ripping from my soul i cant stop the hurt, the tears, the screams forgive me for not knowing what you only tried to show me hold me, stand with me..face to face now, nose to nose just one last time..and kiss me...take me with you papa bear we fought so hard for life, for us for love i cant fight that hard anymore..im not that strong even though i hear you say i am every moment since you left is slow motion i cant stop time but its stopping me..holding me here i dont know how to free myself from the depths of the sorrow my every being is trapped in please help me....i cry myself to sleep every night hoping ill wake up and you'll be right here im trying to be strong but the grief is shattering my will i know you know whats in my heart, and i know whats in yours..reach down and touch my heart and tell me its ok.... ....because im not....please save me
Today I saw your smile, and I thought about how peaceful you looked. I heard your laugh and it reminded me of all funny shit you used to pull...then I felt your hand on my heart, and you told me it was ok to be sad, that it won't last forever, then you spoke..and I listened...jake it's been a ride, rest easy, and i believe you really now know whats on the other side of the stars...ill keep lookin up....I miss you so much and i cant believe you are really gone. :( my heart cries for the things only you and I know...i'll see you again someday i always loved you
lost my husband december 22, 2011....jake was a paraplegic and he was doing what he always did..pushing his wheelchair down the road...too dark..got hit from behind..died..revived..life support..8 days of suffering..death..his ticket to heaven, my ticket to hell...i dont know how to go on