Hi macky I don't know how to explain any of this i think it wasn't meant to be. but it is... one of those weird things in life that is tragic and sad and so much crying and sadness and longing and wanting.. i don't think we can explain any of this. i love him and i know he would not want me to be so sad but it is consuming and i am thankful for the sadness at first i was iin shock. i know it will be forever each of us is different. I have never experienced suicide but the loss and guilt are similar. it just is not right not the right order of life Carrie L
Carrie L.--i just now found your note, but the timing was perfect. Haveing a really hard time lately. I didn't know a person could cry so many tears. Now his grandma is in her last days with cancer. (the grandma on his dad's side of family). Can someone explain the differnt feeling from a suicide or some other cause?