Hello, my name is Mandy and I lost my husband, Officer Ryan Baird on October 7, 2013 to a fatal car accident.  He recently celebrated his 38^th birthday 11 days prior to the incident.  I was shocked, in denial and beyond consolable when the officers came to my door that night to announce his death.  My children were upstairs screaming including our youngest Lundon who is 2yrs old.  I’ve felt my world was caving in on me and for the first two weeks I was an emotional wreck.  Leading…