Two handsome guys; which is you? Words can be so empty, I am sure you have heard them all. Please believe that we have all lost one (sometimes two) dearly-loved member(s) of the family, and feel your sorrow with you. The shock is still very real for you, and right now you need a few good hugs. As time passes your hurts will be less severe, and more pleasant memories of Esteban will come back. Hopefully you will be able to smile, remembering the things he said and did. Be strong and brave, and write to me as often as you want. I know you want to talk about him. Yours, David.