I've been grieving for my fiance for 36 days now and I was having a bad couple days, h--- more bad then good and so I went reading furture back then the most recents post and I saw you. Your statement just grabbed me. That it's ok to act like this and not to worry about what other people think of you if your crying cause a song come over the store that reminded you of your fiance. It's like every motion that exist is happening all at once, a total breakdown and there is not a lot I can do about it. I am exausted, food stinks or taste terrible, shopping brings back so many memories I'm crying the whole time. Everywhere I go has a memory and I can't escape it. This isn't over by a long shot. I would love to talk with you at times. I'm one who needs to see what ahead and the more I talk the better I may get. I don't know. I'm seeking some sort of hope and faith I can make it through this. Church is helpful (attending) some counceling from the steven ministries yet my group classes I haven't yet figured out. I need to find a large group. I am not affraid to ask for help just have no motivation to do the asking. Thank you foryou message and do hope to hear from you.
Here's an idea to find your poem - go to your home page and click "Inbox" in the upper right hand corner, under "Hello, Margaret" and "My Friends." Then look for "Sent" in the upper left. If you open, "Sent," you should be able to scroll down and find the message you sent with your lovely poem. Let me know if this works! Wendela
Thank you for your lovely poem, Margaret. This will be my first holiday season without my beloved husband, who died of a massive stroke on 9/2/09 at age 54, one month before our 27th anniversary. Your poem really expresses so beautifully not only the pain of loss, but also the hope and commitment to go forward, as our loves would want us to. I need to be strong for our children, so I will. I am saying a prayer for you tonight, and for all of us on this site who are learning to live without our spouses. Thank you, and God bless you, God bless us all.