Marge, You are grieving not feeling sorry for yourself.  You are trying to find a new normal and truly people do NOT understand.  This is the hardest road to walk down and unless you understand gut wrenching grief you do not understand grief! Keep my offer in the back of your mind and I do hope you have luck with your therapist. But here comes that limb again, make sure your therapist has also experienced a loss such as yours.  I am a firm believer unless you have walked in our shoes you know nothing about the path we are walking down.  Hugs to you,  Jane P.

Marge I hope I am not stepping out on a limb here but I live in Wilmington DE and attend a wonderful grief group  comprised of older women (70/80 I am only 58) who all but one are widow.  It is free and it is conducted by Catholic Social Services but you do not have to be a catholic to attend.  It is an open forum and you are free to discuss anything you need to talk about.   If you are interested I can get you directions and a phone number so you may contact the person in charge.  Legacy is a great open forum but it does lack the human concept which I so needed.  Any way I thought I would throw this out for you to ponder.  Sending Hugs, Jane P.

I am soooooooooooooooo sorry for your loss of your life!!!!!!!! I am also in a nightmare of my own and I am glad that I found this site without even looking for it,, I was looking for something else ,, but now I feel like I am addicted to this site! I cant stop writing my feelings and thoughts! You write everything you feel and think and one of us your guardian angel will be here to try and comfort you!!!! A BIG HUG TO YOU!!!!!

Marge, I am so sorry for your loss and  even sorrier you are now joining us on the roller coaster called grief.  Your feelings are normal and the first year is full of numbness, so try not to make any life altering decisions within this first year. It is a baby step process where you will take one step forward and 2 steps back. This type of grief is like no other and do not expect many to understand your pain. Unless someone has experienced a loss such as ours they just don't get it. It is now about you and finding a new normal so take your time, come here often for we are all grieving and all in different stages of grief.  We pass no judgements and offer many cyber hugs.  Hugs, Jane P.

Marge I am here to listen and cry with you. The pain will not go away and one has to work throughout it slowly. i am so sorry for you loss, I too lost my husband over two years ago, it still hurts a lot. We have to go, we are the memories of everything, all the good times that were shared.