I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my father this year as well. It is horrible to lose a parent. My fathers passing was an accident. I've cried everyday since it happened but a way I've found to cope is I write my father letters. Even though he will never see them it has helped me so much. I treat it like a conversation at times and as a journal at other times. My mother has found solace in somes books that have helped her. I hope you find what you need to cope. There is no wrong or right way to greive. Don't let people tell you how you should feel.