"DAVID...lol I do the same thing some days!!! There r some days when I. Am feeling alone, and want to reconnect with someone. Sometimes this place is full of people, othertimes, it’s like their all gone! Not a peep from anyone. So,…"
"David, I ask myself that question several times a day ..and I always come up with the same answer. There HAS to be a life better than what we have right now..otherwise why would we still be here?
gee, I have been trolling the web since I got up...no…"
"That was beautiful Steve.
Beard..thanks. Who knows..maybe someday I will get up the courage to learn. I can still hear my mothers voice: “you’re to stupid to learn to drive..if a leaf flies into the car, you’ll freak out and cause…"
"David, there is a famous saying from somewhere..”It is better to have loved and lost, than never have loved at all”
Years ago, before technology, maybe in the 80,s, I was involved in some telephone work..it was just answering the…"
"Thanks DJ for the hopeful post, but I really Dought it, I am only 4’9” tall, and my legs can barely reach the pedals, even with a pillow on the seat...and all the other crazies on the roads really scare me. But, who knows what the future…"
"STEVE,,what nice things you said about MARSHA...I agree with everything. Anytime someone posts about their pain, I find my self thinking WWMS..and I wait for her response, as she has insight thatnindon,t even THINK of!
Beard, that is…"
"Patti, I would gladly trade a night with you...ther are a few nights where I can,t sleep, so I take N extra Xanax in the middle of the night..sometimes a few hours later if that doesn,t work, I will take another half...then I end up sleeping till 10…"
"BTW, I love how we are all here for one another, supporting each other. When I first came here, I DIDN,t know what to expect, so I read a lot b4 I got the courage to post.
One person really touched me...for everyone who was in pain, her posts…"
"I have the exact opposite problem. I can’t STOP sleeping! It could be the Epstein Barr...but I think it’s my way of not thinking about my life...I sleep 10 hours a nite, plus some days I take 2 hour naps. I do take a 1 mg Xanax each…"
"I would LOVE to see Theresa Caputo for a private reading...but I don,t ever see it happening. And, I would want a private reading, not a group reading. You were actually blessed to be singled out. All I want to know is if BOb is OK. I FEEL he is..…"
"Hi Robin. You’ve come to a good place...here you will find acceptance, understanding, and a place to vent your emotions to people who understand. This site is a bit strange to navigate..but if I can, so can you. I would advise you to read…"
"Hi David...it’s me, Mary Jane..I guess I should have added something about myself when I friended you...I am old..lol 70 years old. I am little, 4’9” and am 120 lbs. I live near Tulsa , but spent all but the last 13 years in the SF…"
"Dear Mary Jane,
I'm so sorry for your loss. There is no getting over this and those that believe you could or should just don't understand. I both feel jealous of those that believe they can carry on as usual and I feel pitty for if…"
I'm so sorry for your loss. There is no getting over this and those that believe you could or should just don't understand. I both feel jealous of those that believe they can carry on as usual and I feel pitty for if they are old enough to have had a lasting relationship they must not have known love in as complete and deep way as you are fortunate to have known.
Thank you for your kind words, guidance, and suggestion. I believe I will join the group you suggested.
I received a nice note from a David Heggi on this site but while trying to thank him his note vanished. I don't know how yet exactly to reply or post but I will keep trying.
Thank you again for saying hello and trying to help guide me here.
Mary Jane, I have been wondering what I did wrong. thank you for finding me. I have been reading posts of support on here. you all are very encouraging I'm just not very good at talking. I'm sorry for your loss and will pray for you on saturday. Our 25th anniversary would have been April 18th, My oldest sister is the only person who said anything to me that day. I was upset with her family but we have drifted apart since her death. I will try to post in the other area later today. thanks again.
Mary.Jane ... You're a goof, but a good one! LOL I am so very sorry you're not feeling well and it amazes me you always joke around or make light of things with all the things you are going through. You hang in there girl!
Hi Mary Jane,
Thank you for the friend request - sometimes this is easier to use, with the added advantage of being free to say things more candidly without offending or confusing the other family members in Bereaved Spouses. I get it completely about how frustrating it is to post sometimes - the same thing happens to me all the time, and on top of that I have Windows XP and a less than top drawer access through my phone co., mostly because of severe budget constraints. That's why I can't always get on and just write quickly when I want to, so believe me I won't think you rude for taking time to reply, and know you will excuse me too!
I won't keep blathering now, except to say I haven't read yours or any other posts for a few days, but your comment about waking up crying is so familiar to me - sometimes tears start gathering and running down my face without my hardly noticing it anymore...sadly it is such a familiar feeling that I just hope I'm not in a store or talking to a neighbor. With friends, or of course Steve, I don't worry about it because they aren't upset or uncomfortable, they just reach for my hand or pass the tissues calmly. Friends- TRUE friends - are the most precious thing to me after my beloved Larry, and now Steve.
If you are inclined, I am giving you my email address off this site, so we can exchange notes and/or photos without worrying about words being censored. No, I don't have a potty mouth, but you will find that some words and expressions that seem tame are blocked to avoid offending anyone. I think that's a good thing, but have to re-type things trying to figure out what was objectionable in my original post, and that gets tedious after awhile.
I hope this gets through, and am so glad you are joining the conversations now, because these folks here really are very kind and honest, and have pulled me back from the brink of madness more than once I assure you! Have a pleasant weekend, find some peace for yourself, and write whenever you feel like it - I'm listening, and don't be afraid of asking me stuff, because I'm pretty mello as a person.