Hello, Mary. My name is Brenda. I'm 33 and I lost my dad to pancreatic cancer on Jan 31, 2008. I thought the pain of his loss would never lessen. Although not a day goes by that I don't think of him, the pain does lessen, over time. There are still days where I'm overwhelmed with sadness over his loss. But those terrible days don't happen everyday, as they probably are happening for you now. Please know that it will get better. I find "talking" to my dad, helps. It may sound crazy, but he lived with me the last 7 months of his life and I believe his spirit is still with me. You WILL get through this. Please contact me, if you need anything. brendajills@aol.com