mary i know how you feel. i want to just be able to hear my husbands voice one more time. we take things for granted or at least i did. he used to love calling me at work every morning and then call me again on his way home from work. i used to think that was so silly , now i would give anything to have him give me a call. if only i could have known what a short time we would have together. yes 12 years is short when you have a good man that loves you. a good man that only lasted three months after finding out he had stage 4 cancer that had metastised.he loved life so much and was a good man, it just doesnt seem fair.

Mary I read your post, my heart goes out to you. My husband passed away 4 months ago and no, it does not get any easier or better. Yes, pain is still pain no matter what. In fact it fits it perfectly. My heart is broken, it will never mend. I've already been asked by my oldest sister and my husband's sister do I think I might be married again? OMG this was about 2 weeks after I lost him. Get married again? No way, I still wear his wedding ring and mine. The Bible says until death do us part. Only part!Means he is still my husband, I am still his wife and after my death we will be together again. No one here understands what I'm trying to say, my sisters think I'm nuts. He's gone, not coming back, I'm allowed. Yeah, I know but after 45 years of being married to him, no one not no one would come close to making me as complete as he did.
As I read in here what everyone has wrote I understand that we all mainly said the same. God sure did right by all of us, he gave us exactly the mate we needed in life, don't you agree?
Stay strong my friend, you will be in my prayers, Sharon