Dear Mary, I just read your post on your loss of your best friend... I fully know this feeling of our beloveds passing at home.. for my daughter and i cared for my mom at home until the very end also~ I don't understand WHY... did they leave in such a state... If u care to be friends, i would love to talk to u :) There was SO MUCH that happened i still hold some inside.. I do pray for everyone here nightly.. that we may have God by our sides always to help us in our grief. Blessings to u dear.