I guess you in a way are lucky that you were able to say goodby I never got that chance, so there are so many things I still want to to have said to Dan. I know he taught me to be a strong person so I try to do what he would want me to do when things go wrong, so I guess in a way he is still here helping me along the way, but it sure would be nice to see that smile of his when I get something done right, cause I know he would be proud of me,like when I went on my owen to trade cars I am sure he got a laugh or two that day!
thank you Mary jane I do understand I think the site will heilp me now but I can see that a person could get stuck in one place. I do so much better when I am out of the house and around other people. I also had to learn to use the riding lawn mower what a trip that was I kept the women that work laughing with my storys every week about all the crazy things that happened when I mowed. I have pictures of my husband by my bed and that is the last thing I do at night is to tell him I love him and say goodnight. I wear a braclet with a heart charm that says "always" and I had placed the same charm in my husbands hand when he was buried, because that is how I always signed my cards or letters to him, he will always be the only one for me.
I am so tired of being the the only one to make all the decisions, when some days are just a blurr. I hate feeling so alone ,when something goes wrong around the house,I guess I just get tired of being tired of all of this., and I know my life as I knew it will never return.
I have suffered from panic attacks, so this has really been hard for me too!! I do have days when I laugh, but I guess late at night things seems so alone. My son lives 2 hours away but he has been so great at reaching out and talking to me alot,Dan was his stepdad but they always got along really well together,so this has been hard on him too. sometimes I wish I would wake up and this would all have just been a bad dream.
mary thanks for the encouragement, I hate the anniversary part too but christmas eve it will be 6 months that Dan will be gone. I have my kids and my Grandkids that are wonderful and a new grandson due in March, so much to be thankful for,but the daily heartache of missing the love of my life is hard to bare
Mary Jane, I feel the same way. I lost my wife September 8, 2009 and it seem like nothing else matters any more. She was everything to me. How can I go on with out her. I miss her so much. My heart is broken.
a wine festival sounds perfect, you should go for it missy, it could be like an anniversary time for yourself since you and lou had the wine of the month gift its like a sign..you should go and have fun, you deserve it
yes as a matter of fact i have, i painted michaels bedroom right after he came here to live when he was 5 and i must say i was a little nervous too but i did a good job and it didn't take me long at all. Actually i kinda liked it. My floors are wood too and not in such great shape.