"I've got to get ready for your cuz Roderick to come pick me up, I'm staying at his house for a few days over the Thanksgiving day holiday. Aunt Barbara, Rhonda, Rhya and Azia are already there! Grandma and Donna will be there on…"
"Roderick, your fave Unc is taking me to his house again for Thanksgiving! Grandpa, Aunt Barbara and Tori will be there! Since I won't be seeing them at Christmas, 'cause I'll be with YOUR girl's, I'll be bringing Christmas…"
"Thank you T.C. Goodwin. When my 30 yr old daughter left it brought me to my knees. That was 4/09/10. I've come to realize , just a couple days ago, that if Candace is at peace now, then I should be too. I know I'll see her again. Her…"
"Antwanne, It's a very slow process. It DOES get better but it's so slow, I didn't even recognize I'd improved until I looked back and could remember how I couldn't even do the simplest things. I lost my daughter, who had…"
"I feel for you Dinese. I'm sorry I don't have any words of encouragement. I lost my only child, my just turned 30 yr old daughter Candace Rae Watson. Her and her husband were raising their 3 little girls, 8, 7 and 2. That was 2010.…"
"I lost my little bro Doug. I called him Dougie when we were kids. I could always count on him for anything. It's ironic that he passed from PHT, Pulmonary Hypertension and he's s Respiratory Therapist. HIS JOB WAS TREATING PEOPLE WITH…"
"Autumn, This is a good step, to talk about it.Prayer is helpful, surrounded by others. Go to church where there's more people, strength in numbers seems to help more. You have my sympathy, your twin, no words seem adequate."
"I have pictures of my brother Doug on my desktop. I put them there way b/4 he left. His wife sent me an 8 x 10 of My Dougie holding his Les Paul bass. I, just today, asked his wife if I could buy his Fender Stratocaster if they're going to sell…"
"I just accepted your friend request. You're new. What happened? My daughter and her husband were enjoying some beers when they got into an argument. He took their three little girls, 8,7, and 2 and went to his parents home. When he came home at…"
"Maybe it hits too close to home for them. Death is a tragic thing. It's hard to find the right words even when your heart is in the right place. I'm so very sory you experienced this. I hope u believe in God. He gives me a positive outlook…"
Hi Melinda, I've read your posts and one of us is off with the dates about our children. My son Joe left us April 5, 2010 this year on April 5, 2015 marks 5 years. Your daughter Candice left 4 days after my son Joe.
I've been reading the posts but restrain from posting for a number of reasons. However, it's obvious and I've noticed that you are doing better. You have been holding up one of the members and doing your best to help when you can. May Our Lord God in Heaven continue to light your path.
It feels terrible, huh? I used to have the prettiest smile lines on my face. As the year has passed, so have they. I'm so tired of pretending. I've tried to brush aside the truth of the extent of my broken ness. I've put up such the front, people get offended if I'm not all cheery, smiley and "happy". It's their fault I've worn the mask for so long. It was the only way. But now, no one to be found. I'm NOT OK! I try to be strong for everyone. But it's becoming hard to remain as such. I'm discovering there isn't anyone in my neck of the woods that is there to be strong for me. Unfair! I carry the weight of my world, plus everyone else's. No extra shoulders to spare to help ME share this burden. Sorry to vent all that to you.... I was happy to have eyes to help witness. That way I know, I'm not crazy. Or at least not as much as I think. Hope Monday starts a good week for you. Thoughts, prayers and squishes, H
I understand about the pills. I felt the same way. I was too numb. Void of any emotion or feeling. I needed to experience these feelings and emotions. In the past, I always dealt with a bottle or a drug. I've never really faced any grief I have faced, and one had so many. I'm slowly muddling through years of PTSD causing experiences. One stacked on to of the other. The loss of my son Liam was the final straw. I no longer recognize The woman looking back at me in the mirror. I no longer recognize the thoughts in my own head.
You feel familiar to me. I hope that's not too forward. Or creepy.. But you remind me of someone, but I just can't put my finger on it. Anywhooooo, I digress; I'll gladly share my army of strength in my little toe with you anytime. There's always enough for one more. I hope time gets better for you. You're forever in my heart, Heatha
I'm so sorry your are having such a hard time. I think of you often. I wonder how your are doing. I pray for peace in your broken heart. At times, I wish I could just give you a big hug, sit, share a pot of coffee and listen to you tell stories about Candace. I think the world of you and the live you have for your daughter. I'm so sorry she was taken from you. I know in my heart and soul, we will see our children again.
You speak the pain I hide. You say out loud, what I am unable. Thank you. When I read you cry out for your daughter. I cry with you. It brings my pain to the top and I have to deal. It a good thing. That's the one thing I quit doing, dealing. I brush it aside. But because of that, I now have this giant lump in my throat (the one you get when you're about to cry) that won't go away. But I read your honesty and heart felt words, I cry with you for the loss of our only children. It (the lump) gets smaller for a minute. Thank you Melinda, for being so strong to share your story. Thank you For being my voice. I hope that all came out right.
I understand your feelings. I am missing my Tony so much today. It's just one of those days when it hits me so hard, I will never touch him, or talk to him , or hear his special laugh again. I pray every day for The Lord to take me to him. Much love to all of you that has lost your child. The most pain anyone can ever feel. Hugs to all Renee.
Melinda, I understand what you're saying about getting confused with all the religions. The best thing is to believe in God. However, I do like to watch and listen to Joel Osteen. He doesn't really speak about religion just quotes some things from the bible. And he tells personal stories and is inspiring as well as uplifting. He's so positive and gives good direction such as this week. He said to ask God to anoint us in all areas of our life each and every day. But be specific as to what and who you want to be anointed. Starting with yourself. It's a good feeling. I don't know if you have ever seen him but he is on Sunday morning channel 5 channel 7 and other stations as well. Check those stations between 9am and 9:30am.
Good Luck. And May you be anointed by God in feeling good today.
Melinda I said a prayer for Candace last night from the prayer registry but didn't realize it was your daughter till this morning. I registered my daughter Kyra after she died. Her 1st year angel date is August 17th. Love and hugs to you both Lynn Williams