First of all my condolences to you and your fam..and thank you michele for sharing that with me...our stories are kinda similiar :-) I find comfort in knowing that there ia someone other than my immediate fam that has experienced this as have I. And like you, I knew and told my brother "one day its going to be too late, your going to take or someone is going to give you something and thats it, you will be gone. So next time think before you do it please you have a son to care for" but that was his thing he always thought about himself. I still havent been able since his death whyyyyy...the police said they found a freah needle mark in his arm..just one, which is odd because he never shot up anything he was afraid of needles. But they didnt find any syringes or anything around him. Sometimes I find myself wondering did he die in his sleep? Did he suffer? How did he get whatever he took in jail? Thats where im lost. But again thank you and sorry for rambling :-)