I have lost both my younger brothers less than 3years ago. The youngest died at the age of 20 in a horrific car crash. I was like a mother to him as we were 20 years apart but also "Best Friends". I was barely back on my feet when the next nightmare took place. My next sibling was 2 years younger than me. He was diagnosed with Bi-polar. His marriage ended, he lost his children wife and his house. I took him in with me and my 2 children. We had sad times together both of us still grieving the loss of our youngest sibling. But we were there for each other. We lived, laughed, cried,yelled,shopper together we did everything together,we loved each other so much. Then went on holidays with my 2 children for 1 week. We arrived home to find him on the floor of my livingroom dead. I dont think I will ever forget that moment and forever after that day. I miss him so much. I was told he died of a heart attack. After 1 year of researching and investigating I found out my brother took his own life. I am devasated. I blame myself all the time. I should have done something more to help him. I never thought he would have left me or his children. I miss him everyday. It has been just over a year and I just cannot seem to ever move on.