Oh Nina....bless your heart! Just saw your post..have not been up to date dealing with some family issues. I don't know how in the world you are coping! They were so young, and so are you. I need to get to bed..I'm doing an early am computer workshop at the Elder Center nearby, but I will get back to you tomorrow after that and after going to the cemetery. Tomorrow is the one year passing of Mom, and it has been a most difficult week, but I'm sure not as difficult as the past few months for you.
Please know that you are in my prayers, and that I will be checking on you soon. If you need to email me privately, please do...I'm a retired counselor, a good listener, and most of all have "been there, done that!"
Hugs & God's Speed, dear one!