Hi Aron, We are all here for the same reason. I lost my 15yr. old daughter on 8/9/99 to suicide. Yes it very much sucks. This site is really a good place to come and discuss your feelings because we know how you feel, we've been there too!! 

I am sorry for your loss, it must have devistated you for it to have happened so soon after your marriage!! Please don't feel so alone. we are here for you!!! All though you'll never be the same, it does get a little easier to bare as time goes on. Just surround yourself with friends and try and remember the good times. Please write back, it does help to talk!!