Hello Margarita i hope this note finds you well. So far so good iam hanging in there as best as possible. It is starting to sound like you are taking things one step at a time thats all you should expect of yourself right now at this point. I have the same reaction when i look at pictures of my husband with a friend of his when they went to Sturgis with their Harley's, it was a trip he will never forget. I look at my husband in our wedding photos when we got married 30 years ago, which is the best day of my life.The two days that were happy ones is when our two kids were born. My son is so much like my husband in moods and temperment it aint funny. When you look at photos or hear a song or whatever you may be doing, it will strike a memory of your husband it is okay to cry but then you need to stop and think what a happy day that was. Thats why i strongly believe in saying good night to my husband and saying good morning and i write a diary it really helps; because once you put the angry words on how you feel or whatever mood you might be in those words are powerless, they cannot harm you in any way. I hope every things go well for you and your family. I will offer my e-mail address to you if you would like so we can keep in contact, i think in the process we can both heal at the same time. God Bless