Dear Pauline, My name is Denise my husband had been gone almost a year and a half now sometimes it feel like just the other day. I do promise if you will allow the Lord to help you He will I pray consistly I don't know what I would do if I couldn't pray. I got me a journal right after he left and just started writing my heart felt feeling and you know it somehow works. It makes me cry everytime I read it but its like therapy It gets easier everytime. Our daughter took it so hard and she told me the other day Mama it is true time does help. I can honestly tell I do not remember any of last year I think that is how God has shielded me. I couldn't walk this walk without Him. I couldn't tell you in the beginning this but I know that I know that God has carried me all the way. He has blessed me beyond what I thought and knew. We had no insurance and noooooo money, I can not tell how me people gave me money, the funeral home is letting me pay 25.00 dollars a month, I'm still getting money shoved in my hand every week at church my missions trip this summer is all paid for, I can go on and on. I think the hardest thing is life does go on and its not easy but I can do this because I have a promise from God that one day very soon I am going to be with Dwight for eternity and I will never ever be separated from him again just think never ever again I do have something to look forward to and no one can take that away from me are our three children I am so blessed.