Hello Peg, I just read your reply tonight. This site for some reason is hard to follow posts . My wife did have cancer,although her illness started as a problem with her vision that was due to a pituitary tumor. Somehow after 4 surgeries, it turned cancerous and spread though out her body. She went through a year of hell on earth then passed away Jan 15,2010. She was just 55 years old.As for the nurse thing, hospice sent a nurse twice a week to check on my wife's condition. They also had and aid come 5 days a week 4 hours a day.She really didn't do much,only god thing was it allowed me to leave for sort periods to go to the store. Mainly sat in our bedroom and watched tv. The week before my wife died she told the nurse she didn't want the aid any longer,by this time my wife was blind,she told the nurse all the aid did was sit in the room and rustle papers. So they stopped sending her. I am glad since I spent the last week next to my wife rubbing her back to help ease the pain. Maybe she knew the end was near and didn't want tone around a stranger. It is sad when we can't get along with our children,but I see it happen all too often. Hope you are doing well.Jerry
It seems that everyone fels that as time passes you should be back to normal. But no one knows how we feel in or mind and especially out hearts. I still often think about what was happening when my wife was alive on certain dates, things like was she in the hospital, or were we going to the city for treatments. I try not to do this often, better to think of the good times,which in reality there wer so many more. I have 2 married children and at first they were a little more supportive, but after 2 1/2 years seem to have backed away. I even had to cut my brother inlaw out of my life, he made a few stupid comments soon after his sister died that I didnt like.I feel that I have to do what I think is right for me. Hope you find some peace in the future.