its been really tough because i got disowned when i put my daughter in a group home at the age of 20 IQ 69 and being taken advantage of. during this time we went through ringworm a detached retina so i couldnt see him he went in at 10am that morniing by rescue if he wasnt going to die i never would of known just like the other times i found out from my daughter
thank you Peggy. I am not sure of anything right now . all i know is when my sister gained control i wasnt going to put a sick man through her screaming.no one was happy when i put my disabled daughter in a very good group home she was 20 then. some comfort i do have is that my sister and nephew were in the waiting room sleeping and i stayed by my fathers bedside. i have fibro so i dont sleep half the time anyway,but who could sleep then. he went very peacefully just stopped snoring and he was gone. i was the only one in the room. thats the memorie i carry as i touched his shoulder at 3:30am told him i loved him then he was gone.
the doctor missed this to cancer all over, and never knew she had cancer, she was fine sunday then monday when she got up. bam she was sick. weak. and never left the hoppital, and its monday again. i can't feel anything anymore, my heart is numb, i also took care of mom. and yes. they are helping me at the hospital. thank u all.
Dear Peggy...you said it sister...I very much miss the phone calls...even thou my Mom- was right next door-we still phoned and texted messaged...right before bed and as soon as we got up...I'm sure 5pm will always hold that memory for you...and now I too will be thinking of you and wishing you a happy thought of conversations past...and a prayer and a hug:)
walking thru her home is both sad and comforting- as I can still smell traces of her on things and I take care of her cats (3) who wonder where she is...my Mom and Dad have both come to me in dreams- in both times it was as if to let us just exchange those beautiful words again "I love you"...with my Mom I asked her if she was visiting me from Heaven and she shook her head"yes" and I told her I know she couldn't stay long and again she shook her head "yes"...(I was told by a friend of mine whose grabdmother canme to visit in a dream and the grandmother said that they are not supposed to talk to much- wether or not one believes is up to them, but I am a believer, for it was such a comfort)...and then a kiss and the "love you"...thank you for sharing that story with me...I would imagine it would be difficult to watch videos of your parents- I wish I had some of mine...
Please let me know how your blood work comes back- I shall be praying for good results...I'm sure the unknown is eating you up- as it does me at times...but try to remain calm as at present there is no real worry- perhaps it is something that is correctable...my Mom would have to get blood work every 4 weeks...and there were times where it is easily fixed with medicine or she was taking to high of a dose and it needed adjusting...regardless prayers are being sent your way and for it to be ok...
so glad to learn about how wonderful your son Craig is in your life...and what great attributes and charcter he must have gained by having your parents as part of his upbringing...my Dad never did get to see me marry or have a child (perhaps from Heaven
Greetings Peggy...and you are so right I can not imagine my life now without my son...have always cared for children (teacher- of special needs and have been a Director of a preschool for years upon years) but now this thing called motherhood/mommy wouldnl't trade it for the world- of' course I still have the teenage years to go- lol....feeling a bit sad today, funny how it just sneaks up on you like that...it's been a little over a month now and I just still find it odd that she isn;t around...was it like that for you? I took care of her so I miss that part of my daily rountine and I also lived next door to her which was such a blessing in so many ways as you can probably guess...thank you for sharing with me about your family and listening to me- it sincerely helps:)
I was just reading your message today - and just feel for you as we all try to find a way to deal with our lost. My Dad will always be in my heart and our parents are so dear to us and that is why we honor them as we are instructed to do by God.
I know, your parents meant so much to you - just think of the many good times you had with them. I do not know your spiritual belief and will not impose mines on you - all I know is that we are all promised a better life then what we have here. (Psalms 37:11) I kept what God promised at the forefront of my mind and know that God can not lie and one day I am looking forward to seeing my Dad again. I love him Dearly and miss his words of wisdom he spoke on so many ocassions.
The one part of my father's departure I found hard to deal with was the decline in his ability to be independent and in basically sound health. As time went on and he suffered a severe stroke - it hurt me to my heart to see him fight with the need to maintain a sense of independent and rapidly loose it. I tried so hard to comfort him but he kept fighting the horrible odds and I cried so often for his lost-as his health deteriorated I took advantage in being with him as often as I could and at the same time tending to my mother who also suffered a stroke. It was such a very hard point in my life - and no I do not regret taking on such a challenge. I prayed so often and I know that is what got me through it all...when he did pass - I knew, he was not suffering any more. He was not hurting any more ...he was at his death resting as we are told in the Bible at Ecclesiastes 9:5
Peggy - just hold onto the most beautiful memories that you have of your parents and pray. You know what...I just had a thought - we will never get over our parents ..they are our parents..we will never forget them,the pain may be different as time goes on --but they will never be buried to the back of our minds.