Happy Mothers Day cards, gifts, displays, commercials on TV. I want my Mom I want to be able to see her again this year. Her life ended way too soon. Perhaps I seem selfish as God needed her more than I but it is difficult when I am left behind. It has nearly been a year .... this has by far been the worst and hardest most painful year I have ever had to deal with. I fee very alone that is until I am able to capture a safe place here amoung all of yu as a grief support team.
If I hear one more person say ( SHE IS IN A BETTER PLACE) I am just gonna scream. Easter was far worse than Christmas or Thansgiving .... I could not stand the fact that everyone close to my Mom and extended family gathered at my Moms house as some sorta last Hoorah.... As long as her stuff is there to me she is there. Leave her things alone. no you can not touch it, no you can not have it, no she did not leave it to you because she did not plan on going anywhere. I did not feel one bit of joy I felt off at all of them and where were any of them when she needed love and support ?
Don't allow others to make you feel like you should have time limits on your grief. There is no other pain worse than loss of a child. I know. I also lost my son. It's been 2 yrs. and my family is pressuring me to be happier. They want me to get out more and I have no desire for fun. It really hurts when they are so clueless and my Sister watches way too much Dr. Phil. Big hugs to you and just keep on inching along. There is no hurry. It is a process and a journey, you will be happy again one day. I pray for your Angels to surround you with their love and support. Leslie
Rachel- You must be filled with questions that have no answers. You most certainly should not "be over it". You gave your heart to someone and now it is broken. It is so hard when people, who totally don't understand, pass judgement on us and how we should feel. I lost my 14 month old grandson last October and I know how deep the wound is. I am so sorry you are surrounded by people that are not allowing you to grieve as you need. Come back here often. We all are on the same journey and can comfort one another. It must have been the most difficult decision to make and my heart aches for you. I wish I could give you a hug in person but I can't so this will have to do (--)