You must carry on yours moms legacy and have the family get togethers!! Thats why she raised and it sounds to me you are a wonderful woman. I'm like a zombie. I want to stay in bed and sleep. But, I get up, get dressed and talk about her to whom ever will listen. Thank you for listening. The holidays are huge for us and I'm sure your family too. Do it for them, do it for your mom, make her proud!! I will be toasting to you on Thanksgiving, thinking of you. You can do it!!!!