Renee, I try to use as many purplish flowers as I can, always bearing you in mind. Peace, strength and courage!

Renee, Pain was not part of God's plan.Love on the other hand was. God knew that for love to exist, free will would have to also. He gave us a choice, love or hate. God knew some would choose hate and pain would inevitably follow. Pain offers opportunity for growth  God allows pain to remind us that our home isn't in this world, our real life begins in the afterlife. It's a SIN to take your own life, you wouldn't get to be with Tony and Raymond again. I'm praying for the losses you have suffered, that the pain will ease. Please ask our Lord to lighten the burden on you. I know I'm not the only one praying for you. There are many people. I try not to be sad all the time but when I am,Tami's site is where I go to say what I feel.  I pray fervently you have less sad moments in your day. I, myself, have a permanent frown on my face. Our love is so strong. Know they're alright. I pretend Candace is on the other side of the continent, no phones nor mail delivery. I believe in God, he has Candace and I'll be there WHEN GOD SAYS SO. I care a lot about you Renee, David also.

Renee, I absolutely KNOW that Bernie would not want me to be sad! That makes me smile and carry on, with Lucky, the gift that keeps on giving. I make a conscious attempt to think of Berns asking about supper, smiling at the dogs and making a joke. It is better for my health. I wish you would try.

Thanks, Renee!  I'll kill him if he isn't!

Renee, when I want to connect with my son Joe and wish I'd see him in a dream it doesn't happen. Maybe it will help you if you go to a psychic for a reading. I've seen a very lovable warm woman from Long Island, New York on television. She has helped so many people by giving them a reading of a parent, spouse and children. I've seen her go to their homes on an individual basis. This woman who has given so much peace and connection with a loved one is named:

Theresa Caputo! If you put her name in google then you would be able to learn about her and possibly have a reading with her. She is Italian and a Catholic! I don't know if that helps any but you may be able to find the communication with your beloved Tony through a medium. Theresa Caputo is very popular on the East Coast. If it's too far for you then maybe you can connect with someone where you live. Good Luck and God Bless You!

Sincerely,

Barbara

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENEE!! Candace and Tony are sending love to you! (it is your birthday isn't it?)

Renee, I just had one of the raisins in the gin. And noticed the bottle we bought a couple weeks ago is more than half way done. Then I asked my husband how his gout is using the golden raisins and gin. He told me his hand is better and I said: "But I thought gout is in the foot." He then said it's gotten good because he has apple cider vinegar in the morning for the gout. The golden raisins he uses for the arthritis in his hand. I am so sorry that I gave you the incorrect information. I apologize and I must say even so the raisins soaked in gin is really good.

Renee, I know you well enough to know that you were not trying to be funny. But regardless of what ever happens I always bounce back and have a good sense of humor. It just struck me funny and was able to relate to it all because of my husband and the incidents that occurred with the Merlot. I must say it is really rather good to the taste buds. Tomorrow night on Christmas Eve I am going to light a candle a sweet person gave me when I lectured to help people improve the quality of their life by losing weight. Gee, I don't even recall her name. The candle will be lit for all of our loved ones no longer walking planet earth. But if you pay close attention when something reminds you of Tony it's him getting your attention! God Bless You!