hello renona,
my name is roberta and i feel ur pain oh so much iam so sorry ur going thru a hard time but iam right with u i lost my fiancee on dec 19th of 99 but i still feel like it was last week.i have 2 kids with him and they look just like him its so hard especially this time of year i buried him 2 days b4 xmas ,i also suffer from a severe anxiety disorder and its been real bad lately.i know ur pain if u ever want to talk please dont hesitate im here.take care